I was ill this week, still am and though I act like this tough girl all the time and talk about my space and independence, the minute I am ill or even remotely so, the only person I wanna be with is my mom. Mom’s have this aura about them.. don’t you think?? Just being near them makes you feel better..
I remember as a kid, I would fake some aches and pain..just to get some attention. Mom would bring her “fake” ointment and rub it on me and miraculously I would be all healthy and running around. I do that sometimes even now... J
Everything around me has changed, including me but the one thing that remains constant is my mom’s love for me. I don’t know how she does it and I don’t think I will ever know but it is truly marvelous how moms love unconditionally. I am guilty of showing my ego towards her, fighting with her and even being rude sometimes but the next morning, she is back to normal.. just the way she has always been.
Growing up I thought I was very clever (Now I truly am clever JJ), I used to sneak behind her back and bunk classes, date boys and go off to watch movies. Everytime I did this I came up with a well crafted plan and everytime I was very sure I tricked her into believing what I was saying. My mom acted along most times.. the rest of the times I got badly punished.. immaterial, I always thought I was one step ahead of her. Many years later, during one of our women to women talks, she told me about each one of these “plots” and about how she knew exactly what I was doing. She told me that as long as I wasn’t being naughty and wasn’t hurting myself, she was ok with letting me get away with it.
Giving me the freedom to do what I wanted, learning from my own mistakes was her way of helping me. Letting me believe that I was better than her.. THAT is awesome behavior.. most times we are all trying to show that we are better than others, that we know everything, but I think we have loads to learn from our mothers who always “let” you win and in their own sweet way make this a better place for us to live.
This blog is a dedication to my mom, my inspiration, the lady who makes me a better person each day..
Sigh.. such a sweeeet post... awesome...
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